Name : Syasya (No need to know my long name) Birthday : 17 October 1997 Place of birth : Penang Hobby : Listening to Music, singing, reading and writing Ambition : To be a successful novelist Like : One Direction, Greyson Chance, 5SOS, The Vamps, Jack Griffo, Little Mix, Demi Lovato Dislike : Meanie and annoying people Me : Small for my age and cute Life Motto : Be yourself and go with the flow
I still remember back then when I used to dream of falling in love with a hot prince charming, a heartthrob and endearing and just so sexy and hot as hell guy.. A cheesy romantic guy who would always give me things and flowers or whatever just like what you see in fairytales.. But never in my right mind would I have thought that I would fall in love with him.. This one particular guy who likes to disturb me and annoy me in class actually but i guess that's how i started falling for him.. It wasn't love at first sight or anything that's bullshit.. First sight means you love him or her for her looks but I'm not saying it's all that terrible sometimes it really is a true love.
If you ask me what makes me fall for him I just can't say it not because I don't want to tell or anything it's because I really don't know what.. There's just something about him that makes me fall for him.. And being around him just amazing it feels amazing.. He's a bit chubby actually but he's got a tough body and quite hairy i might say hahaha. But I don't care.. I don't care if he was bigger than me and if he's not as handsome as Augustus Waters or as romantic as Louis Tomlinson I would still fall for him.. It's too late for me to turn back now and forget about this feelings.. I am already falling.. Too deep to crawl back up.. Maybe he is the one for me.. Maybe he can take care of me..
I remember my mom used to say that love can make you blind and that I will understand once I grow older but back then I didn't believe her.. I was like, how can Beauty fall in love with a hideous Beast? Was she blind? And now I know the answer.. Yes she was blind.. She was blinded by love.. She didn't see the hideous part of the beast but instead she saw the beauty inside of him.. The true charming inside of him.. And that is exactly how I feel right now..
I know there is no way he is going to read this but in case you do, I just want you to know that I like you and maybe I had fallen in love with you but I can't say that I love you because that is a three words that I cant waste because I'm not sure if you really like me the way I like you or if I'm just like your little sister but if you do feel the same please let me know the three words first. Mr S. My classmate, my precticum leader, my friend and hopefully my yet-to-be soulmate
Yup. 2015 is definitely over. So, what's past is past and let the bygone be bygone. For now, I'm really looking forward to 2016. As always, a cliche words of course, I hope 2016 would be good to me. But truth is really, it's us who get to decide whether it will be good to us or the other way around. We are the one to paint the life of 2016. Who knows it would be the best year yet or maybe the worse? But the don't worry, the worse days usually ended up right eventually and at the end of the day ir actually gives you a very meaningful lessons.
So, let's talk about me. Although I know it could get boring but this is my blog. Why would I write about other people. Lol
The best memories in 2015
Getting 7 out of 9 A's in SPM. That's very good actually I mean 7. Wow. I worked my ass off to get that much A's and I'm glad to see the proud faces of my parents. I know that I didn't disappoint them.
Working experience. It was a hectic but kinda okay job. I watched over a food and magazines store and was also the cashier. Used to being tricked into a false hundred dollar bills and did cried actually thinking my salary was going to be cut a hundred short bu luckily the supervisor was nice to me. He said it was okay and that happens to people. And I owe it all to him.
Getting into matriculation and the best part was my roomates. They are the best of the best I could ever hoped for. Azira, Medina and Kavitha I love you guys sooo much!! And also my happy cheerful classmates. It's just the best I don't know how to describe it.
Participating in a choir competition and DID ACTUALLY WON FIRST PLACE!!! Yay meeeeee.. and yay the group too of course.. I was the conductor and we had so much fun practicing together and especially after we won.. the feeling was amazing..
My PSPM results. out of 4 Pointers I got 3.85!! I never thought I could but turns out i wasnt that bad after all. Nothing is impossible. Always remember that.
So those are the best of mine.. and the worse? Nah. I'm not gonna talk about it. Let it fade away in time. Besides, like what i'd said earlier, let bygones be bygones eh?
Oh wait my 2016 pledge.
To be a better person
To love the ones who loves me
Making my novel known widely
To have a boyfriend maybe?
To end my matriculation life with flying colours and get offered into the top universities. Or maybe even go to overseas.
And to have a drivers license
So yeah that's pretty much it. And I would also try to update as often as I could this year. To make this blog my online diary.
What does all these means?? Will I ever going to get an
answer?? Why does he have to be everywhere I am?? What kind of love puzzle am I
stuck in right now?? Will I ever find my way out?? Or will I stuck here with no
clue on what’s going on??
I should be getting over you by now but truth is whenever I
saw your face I saw us and I saw our memories even if it wasn’t that much but
it was still there.. I would be lying to myself if I told u I don’t love u
anymore.. but I don’t wanna be the only one feeling that..
I want to know what you feel.. do u still have feelings for
me?? do you still see the sparks whenever we met?? Do you still feel the love
between us?? Do you really like me from the start or was it just all a stupid
games you played with your friends?? I want the truth even if it hurts me.. At
least I have the answer and not left hanging like this.. it hurts me inside and
out..
But
how can I let this out to you?? We don’t even talk anymore.. whenever I see you
I see betrayal.. And a player.. The scars from where you had stab me is still
there.. But why does it still beating and waiting for you to mend it when you
were the one making it bleed??
Part
of me still wanting you back yet another part is begging for me to leave the
past and move on.. But with you still around how will I ever let you go?? How
will I ever learn to love another man??
Maybe I’m just too stupid to see that you were never really
meant for me.. Maybe it was true that it was just a sick game.. You never even
like me from the start.. Maybe that’s the answer I was looking for.. Maybe it
is better this way.. having no answer to all these questions.. Because maybe if
I know the truth the scars would opened and bleed again for the second time..
I still remember back then when I used to dream of falling in love with a hot prince charming, a heartthrob and endearing and just so sexy and hot as hell guy.. A cheesy romantic guy who would always give me things and flowers or whatever just like what you see in fairytales.. But never in my right mind would I have thought that I would fall in love with him.. This one particular guy who likes to disturb me and annoy me in class actually but i guess that's how i started falling for him.. It wasn't love at first sight or anything that's bullshit.. First sight means you love him or her for her looks but I'm not saying it's all that terrible sometimes it really is a true love.
If you ask me what makes me fall for him I just can't say it not because I don't want to tell or anything it's because I really don't know what.. There's just something about him that makes me fall for him.. And being around him just amazing it feels amazing.. He's a bit chubby actually but he's got a tough body and quite hairy i might say hahaha. But I don't care.. I don't care if he was bigger than me and if he's not as handsome as Augustus Waters or as romantic as Louis Tomlinson I would still fall for him.. It's too late for me to turn back now and forget about this feelings.. I am already falling.. Too deep to crawl back up.. Maybe he is the one for me.. Maybe he can take care of me..
I remember my mom used to say that love can make you blind and that I will understand once I grow older but back then I didn't believe her.. I was like, how can Beauty fall in love with a hideous Beast? Was she blind? And now I know the answer.. Yes she was blind.. She was blinded by love.. She didn't see the hideous part of the beast but instead she saw the beauty inside of him.. The true charming inside of him.. And that is exactly how I feel right now..
I know there is no way he is going to read this but in case you do, I just want you to know that I like you and maybe I had fallen in love with you but I can't say that I love you because that is a three words that I cant waste because I'm not sure if you really like me the way I like you or if I'm just like your little sister but if you do feel the same please let me know the three words first. Mr S. My classmate, my precticum leader, my friend and hopefully my yet-to-be soulmate
Yup. 2015 is definitely over. So, what's past is past and let the bygone be bygone. For now, I'm really looking forward to 2016. As always, a cliche words of course, I hope 2016 would be good to me. But truth is really, it's us who get to decide whether it will be good to us or the other way around. We are the one to paint the life of 2016. Who knows it would be the best year yet or maybe the worse? But the don't worry, the worse days usually ended up right eventually and at the end of the day ir actually gives you a very meaningful lessons.
So, let's talk about me. Although I know it could get boring but this is my blog. Why would I write about other people. Lol
The best memories in 2015
Getting 7 out of 9 A's in SPM. That's very good actually I mean 7. Wow. I worked my ass off to get that much A's and I'm glad to see the proud faces of my parents. I know that I didn't disappoint them.
Working experience. It was a hectic but kinda okay job. I watched over a food and magazines store and was also the cashier. Used to being tricked into a false hundred dollar bills and did cried actually thinking my salary was going to be cut a hundred short bu luckily the supervisor was nice to me. He said it was okay and that happens to people. And I owe it all to him.
Getting into matriculation and the best part was my roomates. They are the best of the best I could ever hoped for. Azira, Medina and Kavitha I love you guys sooo much!! And also my happy cheerful classmates. It's just the best I don't know how to describe it.
Participating in a choir competition and DID ACTUALLY WON FIRST PLACE!!! Yay meeeeee.. and yay the group too of course.. I was the conductor and we had so much fun practicing together and especially after we won.. the feeling was amazing..
My PSPM results. out of 4 Pointers I got 3.85!! I never thought I could but turns out i wasnt that bad after all. Nothing is impossible. Always remember that.
So those are the best of mine.. and the worse? Nah. I'm not gonna talk about it. Let it fade away in time. Besides, like what i'd said earlier, let bygones be bygones eh?
Oh wait my 2016 pledge.
To be a better person
To love the ones who loves me
Making my novel known widely
To have a boyfriend maybe?
To end my matriculation life with flying colours and get offered into the top universities. Or maybe even go to overseas.
And to have a drivers license
So yeah that's pretty much it. And I would also try to update as often as I could this year. To make this blog my online diary.
What does all these means?? Will I ever going to get an
answer?? Why does he have to be everywhere I am?? What kind of love puzzle am I
stuck in right now?? Will I ever find my way out?? Or will I stuck here with no
clue on what’s going on??
I should be getting over you by now but truth is whenever I
saw your face I saw us and I saw our memories even if it wasn’t that much but
it was still there.. I would be lying to myself if I told u I don’t love u
anymore.. but I don’t wanna be the only one feeling that..
I want to know what you feel.. do u still have feelings for
me?? do you still see the sparks whenever we met?? Do you still feel the love
between us?? Do you really like me from the start or was it just all a stupid
games you played with your friends?? I want the truth even if it hurts me.. At
least I have the answer and not left hanging like this.. it hurts me inside and
out..
But
how can I let this out to you?? We don’t even talk anymore.. whenever I see you
I see betrayal.. And a player.. The scars from where you had stab me is still
there.. But why does it still beating and waiting for you to mend it when you
were the one making it bleed??
Part
of me still wanting you back yet another part is begging for me to leave the
past and move on.. But with you still around how will I ever let you go?? How
will I ever learn to love another man??
Maybe I’m just too stupid to see that you were never really
meant for me.. Maybe it was true that it was just a sick game.. You never even
like me from the start.. Maybe that’s the answer I was looking for.. Maybe it
is better this way.. having no answer to all these questions.. Because maybe if
I know the truth the scars would opened and bleed again for the second time..
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Name : Syasya (No need to know my long name)
