Name : Syasya (No need to know my long name)
Birthday : 17 October 1997
Place of birth : Penang
Hobby : Listening to Music, singing, reading and writing
Ambition : To be a successful novelist
Like : One Direction, Greyson Chance, 5SOS, The Vamps, Jack Griffo, Little Mix, Demi Lovato
Dislike : Meanie and annoying people
Me : Small for my age and cute
Life Motto : Be yourself and go with the flow

End of the story of my life! ^_^

Use your own word! Hehe

dreams...
i have a lot of dreams...
some are just small some are extremely big...
but all i want to know is..
does dreams really do come true?

i used to always believed that dreams can be achieved by anyone in this world...
but i seems to be wrong...
maybe just for me...
im not the kind of girl who's strong and never really give up that fast...
after what happened to me on 13th of december 2012...
i think its not possible for me to make this one dream come true...
coz it sounds impossible...
and it sounds weird and unacceptable...

my friends always tell me not to give up...
work harder...
but im done with it...
i dont know if i could wait any longer...
i know this sounds stupid...
but who cares??
no one is going to read this...
no one is interested on reading this...

i might just going to let them down if they know what i really feel inside...
i dont know what to do anymore...
everything just seems to be not how it was supposed to be...
everything is not working out the way i wanted...
maybe one day it will...
but just one day and i dont know when is it going to be...
i'm trapped... trapped inside my own heart...
i felt lost even when i'm still at my home sweet home...
i always wanted someone who really do understands me...
really do know what i've been through...
but i could not find anyone...
no one will understand...
and this is all because of my dream which i think had been crashed down into a million of pieces...
i put my hope too high on it..
until i finally hurt myself... really hard.. inside
it sounds weird but only God knows...
i always pray that this one dream of mine... 
one dream that i share with my very bestfreinds...
would come true before it turns worst...
before everything goes wrong...
it's the only most important dream that i want it to come true...

there's more than what u think i want with this dream...
i could change everything if i could catch this dream...
everything at all...
but they look at me just as a little weak girl...
who lives in just a dream that will never come true...
because of my age, my maturity, my money...
i cant do anything on my own...
i cant prove to them that i could make this dream come true...

but i know...
somehow, someday, someway...
my dream will not going to be just a dream...
it's going to be a life that i live on... 
with my family, my beloved friends and everything that i love...
its going to be just the way i want it to...
but right now...
i just dont know how...
so i will just keep on dreaming and dreaming on a dream that only the one who knows will understand...
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